Dear Life

Dear Life,

Sometimes I'm not sure what to think of you, with all of your experiences and future comings.

Sometimes I hate you and sometimes I couldn't love you more.

What I'm wondering though is why I can't seem to achieve the things I set out to do. I can work really hard and think I'm doing everything right only to find out that I'm doing everything wrong. Why don't I feel confident without the support of another person?

It's sad to me that I did so well when I had my hand being held by someone who didn't even really care about me, but just told me that I could do it. But once they let go I slowly started to crash and lose any confidence that I had.

Why can't I get that confidence on my own? Why am I so afraid of you, life?

What is the worst that could happen? Honestly? They say no? They say I'm stupid? They laugh? Why am I so afraid of it!? It makes no sense why I need the approval of people in order to succeed. Why should I be held back just because of a few people's opinions.

There are plenty of millionaires out there, I should be amongst them but I'm not, why? Because I'm so afraid of people!

Maybe you'll ease up on me a bit, or maybe I'll figure out a way to work through it. I am so tired of needing approval.